I have not been sleeping too well for the past few days, so when Inoluwa came in to my room by 2am. it was unusual, because she and her brother comes in to the room normally like 6am.
Fast forward to 6.30am, Bukunmi my son came in to show me that she just lost a tooth, which we were exited about, then lying on the bed near to me came the question, 'When is Mummy coming back'? , for a moment I was flustered, running this question through my mind in a moment, thinking of what's the best answer to this young mind, you can't blame him though, he's used to his mummy travelling for a week, sometimes for a month and coming back with gifts, toys and chocolate, I think this absence was too much for him to handle and thinking why can't she be back for this long journey? 5 months now is a awful lonooogtime. but alas we have to still live with this for the rest of our lives.
Back to 'Bukunmi, this discussion ensured
Segun: Do you know where mummy went?
Bukunmi: Yes
Segun: Where?
Bukunmi: Heaven
Segun: Do people come from heaven to visit?
Bukunmi: No, but they suppose to
Segun: No they don't visit, it's us that will go and meet them when we are old
Bukunmi: Ok, But do you miss your wife
Segun: Yes I do, now, don't miss her too
Bukunmi: She's my wife too
Segun: aha, noooo, she's my wife, but your mummy
Bukunmi: yes I know
and the argument continued and ends in rough play.
I hope I handled that well, time will tell, and this is not the end of all this unsettling questions, God help me.
This brings me to what happened on Saturday night , my phone was Snatched while I was trying to help a dear family friend, while everyone around was feeling sorry and empathizing with me on the loss of my BB 9800 (Touch) I was just looking feeling unmoved, without ant sense of loss, and it's a little bit unusual, for I have lost phones before and I know how bad that I felt even to loosing my appetite.
What has happened to me between then and now?, I don't know if you have ever lost something of value and how you felt and you were able to handle it? But things have changed and I have changed, losing anything that can be replaced with money or otherwise can't be compare with losing someone you can't replaced.
This now calls for us all to pay more attention and value our relationships over things or gadgets. I still have this sense of loss, (not for my phone) and emptiness, will it ever go away? I don't know.
and I sincerely don't know.
Fast forward to 6.30am, Bukunmi my son came in to show me that she just lost a tooth, which we were exited about, then lying on the bed near to me came the question, 'When is Mummy coming back'? , for a moment I was flustered, running this question through my mind in a moment, thinking of what's the best answer to this young mind, you can't blame him though, he's used to his mummy travelling for a week, sometimes for a month and coming back with gifts, toys and chocolate, I think this absence was too much for him to handle and thinking why can't she be back for this long journey? 5 months now is a awful lonooogtime. but alas we have to still live with this for the rest of our lives.
Back to 'Bukunmi, this discussion ensured
Segun: Do you know where mummy went?
Bukunmi: Yes
Segun: Where?
Bukunmi: Heaven
Segun: Do people come from heaven to visit?
Bukunmi: No, but they suppose to
Segun: No they don't visit, it's us that will go and meet them when we are old
Bukunmi: Ok, But do you miss your wife
Segun: Yes I do, now, don't miss her too
Bukunmi: She's my wife too
Segun: aha, noooo, she's my wife, but your mummy
Bukunmi: yes I know
and the argument continued and ends in rough play.
I hope I handled that well, time will tell, and this is not the end of all this unsettling questions, God help me.
This brings me to what happened on Saturday night , my phone was Snatched while I was trying to help a dear family friend, while everyone around was feeling sorry and empathizing with me on the loss of my BB 9800 (Touch) I was just looking feeling unmoved, without ant sense of loss, and it's a little bit unusual, for I have lost phones before and I know how bad that I felt even to loosing my appetite.
What has happened to me between then and now?, I don't know if you have ever lost something of value and how you felt and you were able to handle it? But things have changed and I have changed, losing anything that can be replaced with money or otherwise can't be compare with losing someone you can't replaced.
This now calls for us all to pay more attention and value our relationships over things or gadgets. I still have this sense of loss, (not for my phone) and emptiness, will it ever go away? I don't know.
and I sincerely don't know.
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